Wednesday, November 02, 2005

I hate morning people

Why can't I be a morning person?

I want to be one of those fortunate souls who get out of bed the FIRST time the alarm clock goes off, instead of hitting the snooze button for 45 minutes.

I want to hop out of bed at 5:30 in the morning, go for a jog, have breakfast, shower, and get ready for work without feeling stressed or rushed at all.

I want to be able to go into work, and not be yawning or dragging or cranky. I want to be happy and energetic and ready to go!

I want to come home, and not be completely exhausted by my day, so I can make dinner and enjoy it with my husband. We could watch a little TV, and I'd be able to go to bed at about 9:00 pm. I would drift into a peaceful sleep.

Instead, I set my alarm for 6:20 and hit the snooze button until 6:45 because I am so tired I can't move in the morning. Then I panic because I have only 15 minutes to shower and get dressed. I jump in the shower, speed bathe, get out, run around stressed because I can't find anything to wear that is clean and fits me because I have gained 10 lbs in the last 3 months, freak out because I haven't done my hair, so I smear some styling cream or mousse or whatever I can find in it, swipe some eyeshadow on my lids and run out the door. When I say run, I mean literally! I grab a pop tart and run to my friend's apartment, since we carpool to work.

I get to work and I yawn all day. I feel tired and wish that I was still at home in bed for a good portion of the day. I look forward to lunch, and don't look forward to my job. After lunch, I look forward to going home. All I can do is think about how great it would be to take a nap. Just for an hour or so.

So I get home at about 5:30, 6:00, 6:30 depending on the day and what errands my carpool buddy has to do. Honestly, most of them involve shopping, and I am always up for shopping. So I get home, walk the dogs, and sit on the couch. I wonder what is for dinner, but I don't feel like cooking. I just feel exhausted and all I want to do is go to sleep. I know if I do, however, that I won't be able to sleep later that night, so I force myself to stay awake.

My husband comes home, and either he makes dinner, or we go get something. I rarely cook these days. I also rarely clean, scrapbook, polish my toenails, or anything else I used to enjoy. I usually will watch tv. Most nights, 8:30 or 9:00 hits and I am all of a sudden finally wide awake. This is when I am my most productive. I knit a dog sweater in 2 nights working in that time frame.

I don't get sleepy until about 11:00. By the time I drag myself to bed, take my meds, round up the dogs, and get my husband to tuck me in (he stays up waaaaaay later than me) it's about 11:30, 12:00. Most nights I am so exhausted that I can't fall asleep right away. I lay in bed and think about how tired I am, and how I won't be able to get up in the morning, and anything else that may have come up during the day that worries me.

My problem is that no matter how many hours I sleep, if I have to get up before 10:00 am, I am just tired. I can go to sleep at 9:00 pm, I can go to sleep at 5:00 am, it doesn't matter. As long as I wake up between 10:00 and noon, I feel okay. If I have to get up to an alarm clock, then I don't feel rested at all, and I drag all day.

I am definitely not a morning person.

5 Comments:

Blogger Melissa said...

I know what you mean. What a cycle huh? I hope you get more on a schedule to make it easier :)

9:01 AM  
Blogger Sexy Bitch said...

I feel your pain!

9:21 PM  
Blogger Robyn said...

Hello Miss M! I am new to the blogging world and came across your page. I have to agree with you, I am not a morning person either....your not alone!

4:54 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

what a sad - sad - existance! try a schedule - DUH!! try eating healthier, dropping a few pounds, getting some exercise and sticking to a routine. whining about it won't solve anything. do something about it!!

1:42 PM  
Blogger Zee said...

WTF is up anon's a$$? Geez, some people just need to be shot, or at least that's what DH says and I'm starting to believe him....LOL.

8:32 AM  

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