The Waiting
Well, it's Wednesday and I'm still no closer to knowing what's going on than I was on Monday. I went in to the ob's office yesterday for a second blood draw and they called me with the results today. My hormone level has gone up, but not nearly to the level it should have. This means I get to go in AGAIN for another blood draw tomorrow to check if the hormone level is still rising, and also to check my progesterone, I think she said.
So, in addition to not knowing if I'm really going to have another baby or not, I'm going to end up looking like a junkie from all the holes in my arm. Great.
Stress like this is physically exhausting. I don't have the energy to do anything, and I wish I could just lie in bed and sleep all day. The cruelest part is that of course once 10pm rolls around I am wide awake. I didn't get to sleep until almost six am last night! I just wish I could know already, so I could know whether to be happy or sad and just get it over with. I hate drawing things out like this, it's not good for my anxiety levels.
ARGH.
Miss M told you so @ 12:32 PM
7 Comments:
Ah I'm keeping you in my prayers...hope everything works out and that you get some sleep.
Not knowing must be hard. It leaves too much opportunity for your mind to wander. Keep us posted!
The same EXACT thing happened to me with the twins. I had to keep going in for more blood draws and no answers until a week later. I feel your pain. Then, they told me
I was pregnant with two. Hopefully you're just rockin one healthy baby in there!!!!
You've got to take DEEP breaths and let go/let GOD.
Thinking of you!
where is your faith woman? get the beads out and say some prayers.
I hope all is well...just remember...whatever it is has already been written by the man himself.
Peace out!
Hope you have an answer soon!!! But, if not, that's GREAT that you can hide being a junky. Nice stress relief there. (I kid, I kid.)
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