Monday, July 25, 2005

A Lil' Bit of Random

You know how right before you go to sleep you come up with the coolest ideas EVER but then you forget them by the time you wake up? I hate that. I seriously had three kick ass ideas for blog entries and I have been racking my brain for the last 2 hours trying to remember them. *sigh* Maybe I'll remember them tonight.

I am all messed up AGAIN sleep-wise. I was up till 4:00 this morning and slept in till 4:00 this afternoon. I am still averaging 12 hours a night, and easily getting more some nights. It's sick. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to talk about it though.

I want to be one of those people who goes to bed at 11pm every night and is up bright and early at 6:30 am. I want to make breakfast and read the paper (OKAY so I only read the comics and the ads, I'll admit it! I do the crossword too sometimes) and walk the dogs and maybe work out all before 9:00 am. I want to be PUT TOGETHER. Not perfect, but just have my act together, you know? Clean house, dressed in REAL clothes (not workout pants and a tank top with no shoes) maybe a little makeup onmy face so I don't look all scary and stuff. *shudder* I look kinda scary right now!

I see these flaws I have, and I get all fired up mad about them, and then I start to think of all the stuff I want to do to get my life changed for the better (see previous entry:
http://splendidmissm.blogspot.com/2005/06/but-its-not-new-years.html ) but then I just don't seem to be able to get the motivation to actually follow through with any of it. It's like, I know EXACTLY what I need to be doing, so why can't I do it?

I wonder if hypnosis is a viable option?

I am working about 10 hours a week now, which is nice, because I can still pretend I am am unemployed, but I have a little extra fun money now. Also, I like what I am doing, which is a good thing, and I like the people I am working with, which is a double good thing. There are a couple of girls who work there who are about my age and in my situation (long term relationship/married, no kids) that got together this weekend to scrapbook, and I have to admit, I was a little jealous. Hopefully we will become friends. There is one I have worked with quite a bit and I really like her. She's really nice and fun to talk to.

I read a list on another blog about the "bad people". LOL, that kind of amused me a bit, so I decided to make my own list. I think I also want to do a "good people" list too. Look for them on a future entry.


Well, off to make dinner now. The husband just got home from work so I better feed him. I am a little hungry too. Hey, is it dinner because it's served at 8:00 pm or is it Lunch because I have only been up for 4 hours?

1 Comments:

Blogger Melissa said...

Well it's seems like you are doing a little better. That's great! It's good to hear that you are working some and that you like what you do. Are you working at a LSS?
My sleeping has be crazy too lately. It is so frustrating!!!! I'm not sleeping as much as you are but I know what it's like to not be able to sleep.
OH, and the having the best ideas before bed. I HATE that!!!! put a piece of paper by your bed, just in case :)
On another note. I might be scrapping with some girls from the LSS I work at this weekend. If you want to make the trek out to the West side I would LOVE you to come :) Just an option
Have a great day

8:09 AM  

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