A Lil' Bit of Random
I am all messed up AGAIN sleep-wise. I was up till 4:00 this morning and slept in till 4:00 this afternoon. I am still averaging 12 hours a night, and easily getting more some nights. It's sick. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to talk about it though.
I want to be one of those people who goes to bed at 11pm every night and is up bright and early at 6:30 am. I want to make breakfast and read the paper (OKAY so I only read the comics and the ads, I'll admit it! I do the crossword too sometimes) and walk the dogs and maybe work out all before 9:00 am. I want to be PUT TOGETHER. Not perfect, but just have my act together, you know? Clean house, dressed in REAL clothes (not workout pants and a tank top with no shoes) maybe a little makeup onmy face so I don't look all scary and stuff. *shudder* I look kinda scary right now!
I see these flaws I have, and I get all fired up mad about them, and then I start to think of all the stuff I want to do to get my life changed for the better (see previous entry: http://splendidmissm.blogspot.com/2005/06/but-its-not-new-years.html ) but then I just don't seem to be able to get the motivation to actually follow through with any of it. It's like, I know EXACTLY what I need to be doing, so why can't I do it?
I wonder if hypnosis is a viable option?
I am working about 10 hours a week now, which is nice, because I can still pretend I am am unemployed, but I have a little extra fun money now. Also, I like what I am doing, which is a good thing, and I like the people I am working with, which is a double good thing. There are a couple of girls who work there who are about my age and in my situation (long term relationship/married, no kids) that got together this weekend to scrapbook, and I have to admit, I was a little jealous. Hopefully we will become friends. There is one I have worked with quite a bit and I really like her. She's really nice and fun to talk to.
I read a list on another blog about the "bad people". LOL, that kind of amused me a bit, so I decided to make my own list. I think I also want to do a "good people" list too. Look for them on a future entry.
Well, off to make dinner now. The husband just got home from work so I better feed him. I am a little hungry too. Hey, is it dinner because it's served at 8:00 pm or is it Lunch because I have only been up for 4 hours?
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